I wasn’t supposed to have time for this. I try to write one blog post a week; however, it didn’t look like it was going to happen this week. I was struggling to come up with a subject. There was no time to to sit down and focus on it. There were just too many commitments. But, unexpectedly, I found some time today.
I have said yes to too many things. I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed. There are Halloween party invites and a craft day at a friend’s house. I’m making a costume for myself this year (a first!) for a Halloween themed yoga class I’m attending. I’m planning Girl Scout meetings and testing out craft ideas for our annual Girl Scout craft fair. And this job I have keeps getting in the way. My laundry piles are screaming for attention. It might be a good idea to buy some groceries and plan a few meals for the week. And perhaps I should change the sheets and clean the bathrooms. There is no way I’m fitting in a run today.
I have this fantasy of a restorative, unburdened life. It isn’t happening this week.
But I admit I put this all on myself. Sometimes I think I need to reprioritize. Maybe it’s time for me to back off on some of my commitments. Nope, not likely. I might disappoint someone. Sounds like I need to re-read Brene’ Brown’s Guideposts. Exhaustion is not a status symbol. And I don’t need to please everybody.
So to put a little calm and stillness in my life today, I happily turned to my kitchen when the opportunity presented itself. Here is Kitchen Therapy: Session Two. Though I’m not sure it’s possible to get tired of pumpkin, I have also been craving another fall favorite — apples.
German Apple Cake
1 C vegetable oil
2 C sugar (less if you prefer)
1 teaspoon each of cinnamon, nutmeg, allspice
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 teaspoon vanilla
2 C flour
1 teaspoon baking soda
4 C apples – peeled, cored, and diced (I used Granny Smith and Honey Crisp)
3/4 C chopped walnuts
Pre-heat oven to 350 degrees and grease and flour one 9×13 baking pan. You can also use two loaf pans.
In a mixing bowl, beat oil and eggs with an electric mixer until creamy. Add the sugar and vanilla and beat well.
Combine the flour, salt, baking soda, and spices in a bowl. Slowly add to the egg mixture and mix until combined. The batter will be very thick. Fold in the apples and walnuts by hand. I reserved some of the walnuts to use on top. Spread batter into prepared pan. I sprinkled the tops of my loaf pans with the reserved walnuts and some granulated sugar.
Bake at 350 degrees for 45 minutes or until cake tests done. Let cool on a wire rack.
Serve with a scoop of vanilla ice cream or whipped cream and a steaming cup of Constant Comment tea.
Carve out some time each day for calm and stillness. It’s a time for you to open up an “emotionally clutter-free space,” as Brown calls it, to “allow yourself to feel, think, dream, and question.” Be reflective. Do one thing that makes you feel peaceful. Keep a balance. And breathe.
© Vulnerable Path, 2014